Wednesday, December 31, 2008 9:50 AM
hate me love me ? i still gonna shine !


HAPI NEW YEAR !!

haha today 1.54 am . ! haha

Today i really got so much fun baybeyh .
but penat ! kesian aku half - way deman .
haha . hari ni i go out wit wati . nk beli skool tie . $7.00 !
so dhbis tu ddk pat canteen jap npk mk fatin . ajak kiter owang kluar g bedok interchange . [= mkn my FAV mee soto lagy . hahaha . mk fatin belanja . thankiu ! [= , dh bis g bedok teros g tampines interchange ! . wahh . pasar mlm panjang shiol . ahas ! . mase nk turon pat interchange tampines . i really sori fatin , psl aku jatoh pat kw . i lost control . hahaha . sori syq .dhbis turon dari bus , mk fatin teros balik , tinggal i , wati & fatin . so after we shopping . i saw biyool uhh ! . hahaaha . handsome sak dier . anw . sori tk tegur hee . dhbis shopping teros balik cam dlm kul 7 . balik rehat bukak com . chatting . hmm mase chat i feel cam taq sedap hati uhh , so ajak fathul kluar jumpe pat 120 . haha . he cheer me up !! . hahaha we had fun chatting & telling secret to one each another . hahaha . anywae thx for treat me water . haha . for shiol kluar gan abq . woohoooo . haha . but i shock uhh . dat he knoe me since i pri 6 . OMG . hahaha . so dh pukol 10+ . balik uhh dh malam . so fathul send me home . thx anw . so rehat mkn uhh . lapar sak . haha chatting again . mum plan to go out at 11.30 . nk tgk countdown . kt marina , ape lagy aku cam nk mapos sak , kluar masok kluar masok . haha mcm bdk bodo . haha mase tgk bunga api pat marina . i really hapi sia todae cam my lucky dae sak . hahaha i love it ... [= hahaha . so balik dlm 1.45 ?? hahaha . mase nk recharge hp . wooohooo siak uhh . serious i got many msg siak haha . byk sak kwn2 send aku . so thx frenz ily & imy too . haha . Enjoy photo !! ...


Tuesday, December 30, 2008 6:04 AM
love me hate me ? i still gonna shine !



SKALI SKALE NERD UHH !

Hello Reader !! I'm Back ....



*waves*


Hahaha today i got so much fun ...



Firstly i went out wit mah frendz puva !!



today i msg her ,many tyme & she did not reply it ! so i got really damn angry .. at last she msg me she can go but go hme before 4 !!



aaawwwqqqq ....



firstly i wanted to cancle but my mum ..



haiya can't take anymore ..



so i decide to go out wit her .



Went we meet at POSB bank .



She tell me that she can go home at 6 ! .



u noe i really HAPI sia !!! hahaha we go take cab to toa payoh it cost me $6.20 !



i bring $70 dollar & she bring $50 .



At toa payoh i buy a school shoe . it cost me $19.90 ! & at toa payoh interchange we decide to go banquet to eat at there ! .



we buy mee soto & 1 coca cola , luckily i nv sae COCK !



hahhaha . so we eat ..



then we plan to go tampines .



to pirece nose .



but i can't take anymore cox dat tyme i stand at mrt & i feel to fall down .



so i decide to go bugis & it near . haha OMG .



the place so much crowded . haha i use plastic bag to hit puva butt !



haha & she get angry huhu ]= ! haha so we go second floor to pirece . haha when i wanted pirece . i was damn scared sia hahaha .



at last when i piece i was crying & laugh , hahaha dat me .



so at bugis i saw 1 dress & it damn nice sia so i buy it & puva buy it too but not same shirt . hahaha . after dat we plan to take cab again to go geylang this tyme puva pay for it . haha & it cost $11 haha thankiu syq .



so we walk . laughing hahaha & make joke .



Until i bring her 1 kopi shop . to eat again . this tyme i eat mee soto again & coca cola hahaha i treat her coca cola ok . and she buy a cockles [= $5 half it i pay haha .



After i finish eat i feel damn full wanna vomit back & puva too . hahaha so i go one shop to buy pen this all or i cannot go home haha lol . haha go home lyke normal walk back home .






do enjoy the photo i take today ! [=



Monday, December 29, 2008 5:31 AM
love me hate me ? i still gonna shine !


THE BOYFRIEND



AND GIRLFRIEND TEST
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This is no joke. It works (from experience).
DO NOT just delete this. DO WHAT IT SAYS!!!! FOR YOUR OWN LOVE LIFE'S SAKE!!!
Read this now or forever hold your peace.
This is not just your ordinary chain letter.Every person you send it to, brings you more good luck. If you send it to no one, it will cause someone you like to hate you.
If you send it to 1 person, your next relationship will have lots of fun times.
If you send it to 2 people, you will get a secret admirer.
If you send it to 3 people, you'll get a date for the next school dance.
If you send it to 5 people, the guy or girl you met of your dreams will ask for your phone number.
If you send it to 8 people, your next relationship will be everlasting.
If you send it to 13 people, your boyfriend or girlfriend, will become totally faithful to you.
If you send it to 15 people, the person you have been crushing on for a very long time, will ask you out.
If you send it to 18 people, your date for the next dance will ask you out.
If you send it to 20 people, you'll kiss?your crush at the most romantic spot imaginable.
If it can do that much sending it to 20 people, imagine what it will do if you send it to more.
The consequences:
If you do not send this letter to anybody, your life will become miserable.?You have 5 days to send this letter to at least 1 person. You can send this to as many people as you want to. I am warning you...do not just delete this letter. It is a new chain letter and we would like it to get sent around as quick as possible. I refused to send it to many people when I first made it in June of 1995, because I didn't believe it would work. I sent it to 38 people, then I got the best boyfriend that I could ever have.
Romantic, Popular, or Brainy?
WHICH ARE YOU? PEEPS!
THIS IS THE ULTIMATE TEST!
GRAB A PIECE OF PAPER AND A PEN AND NUMBER IT 1 - 10!
HERE'S THE TEST!
1. Pick your favorite color out of the following:
Red
Orange
Black
Green
Blue
Purple
2. Pick your favorite animal out of the following:
Cat
Dog
Fish
Snake
Parrot
Mouse
3. Pick your desired honeymoon spot:
Hawaii
New York
Africa
Spain
Montana
4. Pick your favorite instrument:
Violin
Piano
Electric
Guitar
Drums
5. Pick your favorite soft drink:
Dr. Pepper?
Sprite?
Coca Cola?
Mountain Dew?
OR Pepsi?
6. Name A. Person Of The Opposite Sex....
7. Name A. Person Of The Same Sex...
8. The Time Now...
9. Your Age
10. You don't have to write it down, but make a WISH and then scroll down!
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HERE ARE THE ANSWERS!
1. Red - Adventurous
Orange -Fun
Yellow - Sweet
Green -Wacky
Blue - Romantic
Purple - Mysterious
2. Cat - Feminine
Dog - Loving
Fish - Boring
Snake - Boyish
Parrot - Annoying
Mouse - Brainy
3. Hawaii - Romantic
New York - Busy East
Africa - Curious
Spain - Mysterious
Montana - Country Girl/Boy
4. Violin - Intellectual
Piano - Popular
Electric Guitar - Wacky
Drums - Wild
5. Dr. Pepper - Popular
Sprite - Wacky
Coca Cola - Wild
Mountain Dew -?Athletic
Pepsi- Fun6.
That person will have a crush on you after you send this!
7. That person will become your enemy if you don't send this!
8. How long you have to send this!
(Ex: 5:15 = 5 hours 15 minutes)
9. How many peeps you have to send this to!
10. That will come true if you do #9 in the amount of time #8 says!
*SO What Are You Waiting For...?
START SENDING NOW!!!*


3:39 AM
love me hate me ? i still gonna shine


WHAT I DONE ?
  1. I’ve felt the pain when I hurt you
  2. I scream in vain for what
  3. I did to you I cry really hard to let you know
  4. I always love you no matter who knows
  1. I kiss you since you love me
  2. I hug you cause you miss me
  3. I grab you with my arms to let you know
  4. I will always be there for you if you let go
  • Leaving me with pain and vain
  • I cried to god, why is this the fate
  • Of a lady who sacrifice for love for so long
  • Until the day she was forgotten and gone .....

I love you a lot why you should left me ? ? Now you gone !! you left me in sad way .. ! where i gonna find you ?? I love being wit you everday ! ..

we lost contact since ur hp lost lyke wanted become 1 month ! you knoe , i can be mad sia 1month nv msg u ! at last i got u back ... but . BREAK UP . because misunderstand . i cry lyke hell ! i dun wan this feeling . i cry because of you & you go back wit ur x ! i can't stop thinking of you until now . i try to removed you in my mind but i can't ! .. i feel terrible sad until i delete all his photo & msg in my phone ! maybe fathul is the right . i must move on . .. but i can't !!! i using other ppl to replaced in my heart ! but i dun love them . i juz wanna ppl to make me hapi but i think it i use other to replaced me & i not love them i will hurt them ! . aawwqq ]= ! ..

i feel sad to type more ! .. k until here



1:07 AM
Love me hate me ? i still gonna shine !


HEARTBROKEN LOVE :


Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than to be home,
Listening to the crickets’ sounds,
Outside the windows.
Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than in the bed,
Closing my eyes,
Falling into a deep sleep,
To forget about the days,
Forget about the nights,
Forget about you.
Heartbroken,
Nothing better than to sleep,
To forget that you are gone,
To forget your lies,
Forget the way,
You told me,
You never loved me,
Forget the way,
You looked at me,
When you left me,
I want to forget,
I want to leave this world,
Close my eyes,
Fall to sleep to stop the heart,
From beating.
I block my ears,
From hearing the sounds,
Like your voice,
Like when you sing to me,
Those lovely songs,
They sounded to tender,
Now they kill me,
They hurt me,
I don’t want to hear anything,
Don’t want to hear the waves,
Hitting against the sand,
Don’t want to hear the birds,
Chirping outside the windows.
Don’t want to see my face,
Don’t want to see you,
Don’t want anything,
That has to do with you,
I want to close,
I want to block away,
The world to stop the pain,
In my heart.
I want my heart to stop beating,
To stop bleeding,
From your words,
Your lies.
WHO YOU USE TO BE :
I can still see the tears running down your cheeks.
Each one a confession of your deceats.
I can still see the guilty look on your face.
When you knew I caught you red handed again.
So now you've run far away from here.
Leaving behind all your problems and fear
The fear of them following you through that door.
But now
I don't feel sorry for you anymore.
The mere thought of you brings tears to my eyes.
And the feel of hope that could barely survive.
The hope that you finally saw the end.
Now I can see my old friends again.
I guess I'll just have to wait for you.
But you're gone now so what's there left to loose?
I miss you so bad you just can't believe.
But not you now.The person you used to be.
LOVE IS FULL OF BLIND :
Love is blind, or so it's said
As if the eyes had failed
To notice things that others see
Like faults to be assailed
Imperfections multiplied
Until they do abound
Problems then are magnified
'Til they compass us round
This is why
Love must be blind
For who could stand and face
Such a searing spotlight and
Still be loved one trace
This train of thought sounds logical
At least unto the head
But if true love comes from the heart
Who by the head is led?
p/s : Love is blind – I disagreeI do not feel that way
Love sees each and every fault
And
Love loves anyway


Sunday, December 28, 2008 7:39 AM
Love me hate me ? i still gonna shine !


This wat we brought !

[=
muke aku tk perlu knn ?



this 1 is my haha left my 1 & right wati nyek !

Yeah juz go home ~



hai ! *waves* ! ..

todae had so much fun wit wati & dyana .. there come to my house nk buat project . haha firstly i tv for them to watch ! SON OF THE MASK .. nice watching ! ... [= & funny too hhahaha ! ...
so kite gurao2 uhh .. haha sambil tu nk buat project tapi tk masok akal uhh ! alah wat bdh uhh pergi youtube tgk 'how people make chocolate & chewing gum . hahaah ! .... rbk .
k lepas tu g plygrd tempat angin ! .. dyana go home alreadi ! so i & wati plan to g hello kitty shop ! .. buy something at there beli mkn & air teros mkn pat plygrd fav kami !! ...
so go home fathullah msg me ! ckp psl mira .. blah blah SETTLE ! hahaha btw fatul sori eyk i cannt stop saying 'FUCK' hahaha fuck uhh fuck ! wooohooo ..... haha k until here reader [=


Saturday, December 27, 2008 8:49 AM
Love me hate me ? i still gonna shine !


Hai Reader Blog back to normal alhamdurillah ! kaq wani tlg me ! [=
thx alot syq ! ...
Todae i got wit wati ! haha ape lagy buat kecoh uhh ! ingat nk tgk alam kubor pat my house .
Tk jadi ! hmph ]= ... so we plan go out nk p pasar mlm kt circuit road ! ... npk AZRAF ! ahas ! maen baeketball kepe ? ahas ! sambil tuu tgk brg2 kt pasar mlm but ssooo bored ! .. nthg new ! ..
so plan nk g aljunied beli burgur ! tapi tutop ! fed - up sak . penat2 jln .. teros g ntuc save ! ingat nk beli ais - cream ! tapi tkot melt ! so kite plan dat wati buy roti ape tah ? tapi sedap yummy & me buy bubble tea & chesse fried ! haha .. so cpt2 jln nk g plygrd fav kami mkn kt sane ! skali terJUMPE FAThullah short form FATUL ! shock haha cpt2 lari ! abeyh tk tegur die ! haha dh sampai plygrd dpt msq dari fatul haha die ckp 'SOMBONG' ! haha ish ane ader sombong bang cuma shock ! haha .. so mkn2 dh kul 7 lekas2 g blk 120 lpk call fatul ! ajak die dtg sini ! ... so die dh dtg . kite mcm pmpn gile sak ketawer2 non stop ! ... hahaha .. blepas tu maen kejar2 kt bwh blk gile uhh ! dh uh lari laju !
haha ! gile siol ! teros balek wati dh alik .. so me too anw thx eyk ! fatul bbual gan aku smpi depan lift umah aku ! hahaha ! app lot !! wooohoooo ! .............
k la reader until here ! taqqcaire ! [=


Friday, December 26, 2008 4:33 AM
Love me hate me ? i still gonna shine !


Yeah whole famil goin out ! rawww Freak ...
Nisa muke retarded la knn


hahahaha


she gd she suck


yeah look my ugly face !!



Redaer syq !










weii ! yesterdae ! i goin out wit my whole family ! haahaha fun gerek taw ! ....... but sori malas nk type about yesterdae .. [=










0k ? i type about todae [= !!













WEE ! TodaE fun smcm sak ! haha we go ecp - east coast park ! [= ! ...... wooohoo ! dgn kaq wani , mira , fathullah , monk[jason] & reduan !! ahas ! firstly .. cam tkde mood taw nk g ecp cox dh lmbt gile ! but i decide not to spoil the plan ! so i decide mesti jugaq pergi ! hahaha ... mase tunggu mira & kaq wani .. kt bus ! ingat dat fathul & their fwenz rupe2 nye drg dh sampai janji kul 2 dtg kul 3 cam nk dkt 4 ! haha ... mase kaq wani & mira dh smpi .. terkejot sak tgk wani punya la lawa ! hawt la kaq ni [= ! ..... hehe mase dh smpi kt ecp ! ape lagy ! hav fun la ! .. [= !
mandi laut ! hehe 3 bujang maen card ! [= ... haha too bad cuma amek satu gambar jerq ! ]= ! .. tapi guy i got really hav fun there ! ily guy ! ... [= tapi to bad kene alik cpt nye psl ! .. awwqq mase nk alik lekas2 tahan taxi ! .. bile dh smpi wah ! $ 11.50 ! ... awrq wasted sak ! dh uhh yg sudah tu sudah ! balek cuci kaki mandi maen com teros tido [=
k reader until here bby !
taqqcaire


Wednesday, December 24, 2008 6:55 AM
Love me hate me ? i still gonna shine !





Hello ! Reader [= !!




woohoo hari ini hari paling best uhh ! hujan 24 hours ! i love it babe ! .....Today nv go out [= hmm ddk umah maen com hehe ! ...... REader i so sori .. until here la ! malas nk type lagy ! kk if i rajin la i type more !! ... takecare ! enjoy the photo i take today ! [=


Tuesday, December 23, 2008 4:23 AM
Falling down ~



Hello Reader :

Today is fuck uhh deyh ! haha but fun ! woohoo mei kita booyah ! ... [=


Today dyana come to my house nk buat project utk 'c'a' mark ! so we plan to do at my house .. unlucky my brother use computer huhu ! so we plan to do at ppl house unlucky all bz ! so big ass .. SHIT ! so i try to mxq irfan .. wanted to go his house tuk lepak2 lar ... tapi uah jauh la seyy tampines nk kate knn blh sesak ! haha so we stop at umah amirah nye bus-stop ! so we shopping at there we walk lyke 1 hour so we plan to go back circuit road ! when at bus ! i mus stand leehhh wtf .. but suddenly i got a headache .. seriously i wanted to fall ! coz i can't see anythin !! .. so i hold dyana ! aww when i wan to goin out to the bus ! i feel that someone push me ! so quikly i sit down at 1 place ! but tk salah i saw bdk sec3 knn ? aww nvm ! so i can't take anymore teros g umah siti [= ! haha rehat kt umah die mkn2 .. fun la siot ! [= so dh nk dkt 7 ni lekas2 balik hahaha ! so rehat then maen com ! [= haha mase nk g bilik air ! seriously i fall down ! pain huh pantat ! nasib baek kepale tk kene meja ! then my mum shock baget ! hahaha k la until here reader ! [= take care !


Monday, December 22, 2008 9:53 AM
unbreakable


Babe ! My feeling full of heartbroken ]= how should i say ? i damn miss my x so much ! khais .. but i can't forgive myself for hurting hym ! i love hym so much ! he are my wonderful boyfrenz ! wat i wan is to last long wit hym ! but to bad i & hym break up already ! what i noe is i love hym so muchmuch ! .. i really damn miss hym ! u noe wat i still keep all his mxq in my phone i save it on my hp & i wun delete ! ... i really damn hurt now for leaving u ! & i dun wan to fyne sum1 .. i juz waited for u until now ! & i dun noe how u feel ? ? ? i noe u had a relationship already .. but i dun wan to disturd ur steading ! what i do is thinking on u each day & each night ! thinking on u how u been this while ? but i dun ? will u think of me back ? i dun love other i lone 1 & onli u ! i can't hide my feeling anymore .. my feeling is damn hurt & miss u lot dear !


8:18 AM
fun !























Hello reader [= !












today i really had so much hahaha ! my good luck ... hahaha lol ! today my father free for buying me a school uniform hmm ! 2 P.E , 1 UNIFORM & 1 SKIRT hahahaha ... so altogether i had 3 P.E SHORT [= , 4 P.E , 3 SKIRT & 3 UNIFORM ! hahahaha so wierd ! hmm ??? haha juz forget it [=






school wanna reopen aww i nid to dye my hair black ! fuck uhh fuck hahaha ! LECEH LUHH ! nvm ! today wati ask me goin out wit her lepak2 la knn ! so we meet at macpherson cc . our usually place [= ! so i ask her to follow me , went to 7eleven pay a starhud bill [= .. so after goin 7eleven we goin dyana house visit her [= ! hahaha aww i hug her small sister [ farisha] i miss her alot ! haha lupe nk maen congkak hahaha ! yeah .. so after visit her house we go library reading book ! oh shit i saw monk haha using laptop at library.. [= after sitting down at library suddenly our stomach feel so hungry ! hahahaha i treat wati burgur wit egg cost $2.80 together $5.60






but i got a discount woohoo ! $5.20 cox we buy a drink also so we get discount [= !






but we plan eat our burgur at blk 123 got playgroud there booyah hahaha angin tiup kuat sak ! when i walk at parking road i hear ppl SHOUT my name so loud sape sak ? alah juz 4get it ! bile dh sampai plygrd open a song lagu kiroro ! so sad sampai teringat2 my x ]]= ! yeah aww ! i miss hym so badly sia ! so after we eating finish i saw kumaran(senior) & khalis(junior) ! haha !!






after sitting down there i decide to go home cox ir 7.00 lebih gitu ! dh penat gile haha !






so enjoy my taken photo today [= !


Sunday, December 21, 2008 10:23 PM
my face la seyh !



aawwwqqq i dun noe what i thinking of ?? haiya ! thinking of miss somebody !
hahaha for fun taking ! boredbored ...



This pic is when i was pri to secondary ! .. i change alot .. [=




10:30 AM
sedih !


Angin yang sepoi-sepoi bahasa tidak mampu menenangkan mindaku.
Aku amat sedih dengan apa yang telah ditimpa oleh Pak Ali.
Seorang warga tua yang sangat aku hormati.
Bagiku, apa yang telah berlaku adalah tidak adil.
Mengapa ini semua harus terjadi?
Mengapa harus Pak Ali pergi meninggalkan ku ketika kami mula bermesraan?
Ketika aku mula menyayanginya sebagai seorang cucu terhadap atuknya.
Ketika aku mula merasakan apa yang ingin aku rasakan sekian lama?
Kertas yang berada ditanganku sudah ronyok dek genggaman.
Aku tak mampu menerima hakikat ini.
Airmata yang bertakung dikelopak mata mula membasahi pipiku yang gebu.
Alunan ombak telah mengambalikan nostalgiaku terhadap Pak Ali.
"Mengapa cucu menangis? Boleh atuk bantu?", satu suara yang terketar-ketar menyapaku.
Aku berpaling kearah suara itu.
Alangkah terkejutnya aku apabila melihat wajah yang berada di hadapanku.
Wajahnya buruk sekali.
Aku terpana .
"Kau siapa? Apa yang kau mahu dari aku? Aku tak perlukan bantuan kau!
Baik kau pergi cermin diri kau sebelum menghulurkan bantuan.
Kalau kail panjang sejengkal, lautan luas jangan diduga.
Jika kau tidak dapat menguruskan diri kau, apatah lagi membantu aku.
Tidak perlu. Aku tidak ingin bantuan kau!
Pergi kau dari sini!
Kau tidak ubah seperti seekor anjing yang terbiar di tepi jalan! Aku jijik tengok muka kau! Pergi kau dari sini!," kata-kata nista yang telah aku hamburkan masih aku ingati.
Waktu itu, aku berasa amat buntu hingga aku alpa dengan apa yang sedang berlaku.
Aku tidak mampu mengawal perasaan amarahku hingga aku telah memarahi dan mencaci seorang insan yang tidak bersalah terhadap diriku.
Pada saat itu aku ibarat seperti marahkan nyamuk, kelambu dibakar.
Aku mengaku, memang khilafku.
Aku menyesal. Aku berasa marah apabila ibu selalu mengenepikan aku.
Ibu selalu mencaci diriku.
Segala yang dilakukan oleh diriku pasti ada sesuatu yang membuat ibu marah. Semuanya tidak betul.
Ibu tidak pernah memujiku. Sebaliknya, cacian yang telah dihadiahkan. Aku benci dengan keadaan itu.
Oleh itu, tangisan adalah cara yang terbaik untuk aku melempiaskan segala perasaan kecewa dan marahku.
" Ya nak, atuk mengaku bahawa atuk kelihatan tidak sempurna.
Atuk tidak berdaya untuk membantu.
Namun, kesempurnaan tidak terletak sahaja pada parasa rupa.
Malah, sifat dan kemuliaan hati juga boleh diukur bagi perkataan yang bermaksud sempurna.
Atuk minta maaf jika atuk menganggu cucu.
Atuk tidak berniat untuk menambahkan lagi kesengsaraan yang sedang cucu perolehi," aku terbungkam pabila mendengar kata-kata atuk itu. Jauh disudut hati, aku ingin memohon maaf.
Namun, lidahku kelu.
"Oleh itu, sebelum atuk meninggalkan kamu sendirian, dengarlah nasihat ini.
Hidup tidak selalunya indah.
Kehidupan boleh diibaratkan bagaikan lautan yang ada kalanya pasang dan surut.
Apa yang setiap insan hadapi adalah cabaran dan tentu ada hikmahnya.
Ianya bagaikan udang disebalik batu.
Sebelum kita kecapi keindahan di dalam kehidupan, kita haruslah hadapi cabaran dengan hati yang tabah.
Kehidupan tidak akan membawa makna jika tiada masalah.
Manusia sering mengeluh dan mengadu jika menghadapi masalah.
Tetapi, mereka tidak sedar bahawa kepahitan itulah yang akan menjadikan mereka seorang insan yang berguna.
Jika bukan kerna masalah itu, manusia tidak akan bangkit untuk memperbaiki diri masing-masing untuk menjadi seseorang yang berguna.
Atuk harap, cucu selamilah kata-kata atuk agar cucu dapat selesaikan masalah yang sedang dihadapi dengan sebaik-baiknya. Atuk pergi dulu ya nak.
Dan maafkan atuk jika atuk telah membangkitkan kemarahan cucu." Katanya lalu beredar dari situ.
" Ibu bencikan saya. Saya tiada tempat untuk mengadu.
Mengapa ibu bersikap seperti ini? Saya berasa amat sayu pabila mengenangkan nasib diri yang malang ini," kataku tetiba tanpa dipinta.
Biarlah lelaki itu mengetahui apa yang tersirat di hatiku ini.
Aku tidak mampu menanggung keperitan ini sendirian.Sekian lama memendamkan perasaan ini, tewas jua aku akhirnya.
Aku sendiri tidak mengerti mengapakah lelaki ini telah menjadi tempat aduanku. Mungkin kerana nasihatnya sebentar tadi atau mungkin juga kerana aku berasa bersalah terhadap dirinya. Aku sendiri tidak pasti. Yang pasti, aku perlukan seseorang disisiku untuk meluahkan perasaan yang telah kian lama terbungkam di hatiku.

"Mengapakah cucu berkata seperti itu? Ibu mana yang tidak sayangkan anaknya? Tahukah cucu bahawa kasih sejati adalah kasih dari seorang ibu? Dialah yang telah bersusah-payah melahirkan kita di dunia ini. Tanpa mereka, siapalah kita," bidasnya.
adakalanya kamu berjaya? Tidakkah itu bermaksud bahawa kamu telah mempertingkatkan ilmu pengetahuanmu hingga kamu berjaya?
Itulah caranya ibu kamu meluahkan perasaannya. Iaitu, ketegasan.
Sudahlah nak.
Jangan lah menangis.
Kepahitan dan keperitan di kehidupan haruslah dijadikan pedoman agar kita menjadi seorang insan yang berguna.
Usah ditangiskan lagi. Kini kamu mengerti apa maksud atuk bukan?" kata Pak
Ali lalu beredar dari situ.
Kata-katanya telah menyedarkan aku. Jika difikirkan balik, memang benar apa yang dikatakan oleh dirinya. Mulai dari saat itu, aku bukan sahaja mula rapat dengan Atuk Ali, malah hubungan ku bersama ibu mula menjadi erat.
Aku bersyukur kerna telah ditemukan Pak Ali.
Pak Ali adalah seorang yang amat aku kagumi dan hormati.
Walaupun kisah kehidupannya amat memilukan, namun aku kagum melihat ketabahan dirinya. Pak Ali tidak mudah untuk mengaku kalah.
Dia tidak seperti insan lain yang mudah berputus asa.
Sebaliknya, dia hadapi semua ini dengan hati yang terbuka.
Pak Ali telah merentasi segala rintangan dengan hati yang penuh dengan ketabahan.
Dia pernah berkata bahawa dia redha dengan apa yang berlaku terhadap dirinya kerna dia pasti bahawa setiap perkara yang berlaku, mahupun baik atau buruk, pasti ada himahnya.

Pak Ali telah kehilangan suri rumahnya serta anaknya yang berusia 5 tahun. Mereka telah terlibat dalam sebuah kemalangan yang amat mengerikan.
Kereta Pak Ali telah dilanggar oleh sebuah lori.
Tiada siapa yang dapat diselamatkan kecuali Pak Ali.
Selama 10 tahun Pak Ali merana. Namun dia sedar, tidak guna mengeluh kerana nasi sudah menjadi bubur. Tiada apa yang boleh dilakukan dan tidak mungkin masa boleh berputar. Kehidupan harus diteruskan.
Mulai detik itu kehidupan Pak Ali bagaikan sebatang kara.
Hari ini adalah hari Sabtu.
Bererti aku akan bertemu dengan Pak Ali sebentar lagi.
Aku tidak mengerti mengapa hatiku tiba-tiba tercuik untuk membaca akhbar yang berada di hadapanku.
Lalu, aku pun menyapainya.
Hatiku bagaikan ditusuk sembilu pabila membaca tajuk berita itu.
Pak Ali telah menemui ajalnya. Rumahnya hangus dek dijilat api. Aku bagaikan tidak percaya.
Mengapa ini harus terjadi.
Pipiku basar dek airmata yang mengalir dipipiku.
Walaupun, Pak Ali telah pergi meninggalkan aku, namun dirinya dan juga nasihatnya tetap subur di sanubari.
Ingatan itu tidak mungkin akan luput kerana jika bukan kerana dirinya, tidak mungkin hubungan ibu dan aku akan menjadi rapat.
Dan kata-kata perangsangnya akan tetap segar diingatanku






9:20 AM
!! aawwwqqq ily faham ?


awwqqq ! todae ! tired sak ! penat hahahahaha ! hari ni pergi aljunied fuck uhh fuck ! sebok siol due betine mei2 & asikin ! budak balam ! dh la umor setengah jagong ! fuck uhh sebok jerq bdk ! fatin pon lagy satu ajak drg ikot aku watpe !!!! mane2 aku pergi ikot aku jerq mcm owang bdh seyh ! ... sbeyk belankang aku bisik2 sial btl ! nasib baek aku gan fazliana tk maki drg pat road ! sua nye pmpn ! ade hati nk knl2 gan abq aku ! eyk abq aku dhde mataer la 0it ! ..... today afternoon mood not so good !hahaha buli fatul DOREAMON ! hahaha nk gemok kepe bang ? when at night baru fun ! haha tgk bola ! ish fuck uhh fuck singapore lose ! haiyo ... hahaha late night .. i ask kaq wani my dearest sista haha , help me lotLOT in this blog ! she so great ily u akaq muah [= ... ! k la reader until here bsk sambung [=


Friday, December 19, 2008 3:37 AM
fatul , monk , mira & me






READER :
sori for not update for so long ! ... really sorry hahhaha ! today i go out wit fatul , amirah & monk ! haha we had a great tyme at library ! [= first i playing chak at library ! haha .. so 4 a while i & mira goin 2 level 2 to take singapore ghost stories & fatul tell us mcm fhm haha mesti la fhm haha! i & mira keep laughing at library .. & we dun noe y ? & fatul tk habis2 ckp mira r u minah rep ?so we keep on enjoy at library haha ..... fatul was helping his fwenz for sumit something on internet ! .. & i saw them playing habbo ! u noe what we had a great tyme at there ! [= haha .. the most funny part is mira her slipper hahaha x 100 mcm mane la blh koyak ?? .. ish .. when we wanted to go home ! not even 2mnt her slipper buat hal pulaq ! haha ask fatul & monk for help .. but but they sae kalau miranye slipper koyak aku kene pki slipper fatul & mira pki slipper aku dhbis hantar mira balik kt macpherson sec bus-stop kene patah balik g library ! leceh kn hahaha nasib baek tk yah ! haha ! .. mira & me so hungry so we plan to eat at kopi shop near by geylang east .. we 2 eat chicken rice i treat mira huhuuh @ dpt pahale [= ! ....
so until here ! teros balik [=


Wednesday, December 17, 2008 12:49 AM
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Smlm kluar gan fatin & wati ! haiyo jln gan drg buat malu jerq ! ketawer maintain luhh ! .. balik pukol 8 sharp mlm [= ! I Got HotHot Temper yesterday ! ... Enta la ? ! Ihsan , ihsan ! yesterday tok to hym at phone ... [= hahahaha but onli for awhile so pity mum wanna use phone to call abq ! .. See news 5 tonight ! BUSH kene campak kasot siol ! hahahahahahahaha ! I HATE BUSH HE SO DAMN SUCK ! .. kn bgos aim muke die .. tapi dpt elak ! fuck luhh ! hahaha parent smua kekek sak smlm ! [= ~


Saturday, December 13, 2008 12:10 AM
okok


today !

Awwwqqqq ! amirah b'dae coming soon ! hazlan plan dat we goin out together on 16 december ,
cox 15 december amirah had a pinic wit her family ! so we plan next day ! haiya ! i dun feel to go out this few day ! [ sick ] huhuhuhu ! haiya ! k la fwenz tata


Tuesday, December 9, 2008 9:36 PM
today


update !
hello ! [= welcum2

Today ! [=

Wake up at 12.30 ade 5mxq hp pulaq ade sikit problem seyh ! asl lak org mxq tk dpt reply ! ]=
pagi-pagi bangun buka com ! 19 org online jerq ! shamir online ckp sorry psl smlm die bad mood , enta la ?? sambil chat die tenga siap2 nk g keje balik pukol 11 ! lmbt gile sak ! kerje ape tah ? lupe la nk tanye ? hahaha chat chat lepas tu gadoh psl aku ! aku ckp die tinggal ane ? sims eyk ? shamir ckp macpherson ! teros die ckp where i live so i say paya lebar way ! naper ? teros die ckp bedek ! abei i sae naper ? shamir ckp khais blg die dat i stay aljunied ! mepek sak ! sori sikit ! ............ ]= e. ! btw welcum back vania ! [=
amirah ! hahahaha good luck beb ! dating gan fiqal tgk wayang [= ! jgn lupe swit tok taw ! k la sampai sini [=


Monday, December 8, 2008 10:10 PM
TODAY




HELLO FWENZ ! ,






Nisa back [=



sorry for not update blog too long ! [=






today it just normal ! pagi2 bangun tido kul 12+ ! teros masok bilik air ! mandi termenung ! blah .. blah .. blah ! miss somebody not my (x) [ = ! yesterday is was HARI RAYA HAJI ! ya allah sedih sangat tengok kambing kene korban ! ]= !



bile pagi2 bangun wati telephone ajak nisa jln2 ish leceh btl ! tkper la kluar aje la dh bosan sangat asik2 ddk umah maen com ! bile bukak pintu bilik nk pergi depan umah nisa cuma ade abq besar , mak , akaq ... drg ade pat umah ! tapi bak (ayah) , abq (amin) pagi2 dh kluar amek kambing korban ! [= , teros nisa masok bilik air mandi ! dhbis tu bukak periut ! FUUYOH NASI MINYAK SEYH ! lekas2 amek pingang mkn kasi kenyang ! [= teros npk abq dh alik bawak byk kambing korban ! E.... gile benar beb ! huhuhuhuhu ! teros nisa buat hal ni smua teros kluar pkl 12.15 ! wati tunggu pat bawah umah siti ! mase tu hujan haiya terlupe bwh jacket kesayangan nisa ! huhuhu teros ddk bwh sekejap ! sambil tu maen hp ! wati tunjuk kn 2 vedio ni ! psl budak malaysia madrasah gadoh gan pmpn minah ! rbk seyh sampai angkat2 kain nk gadoh ish2 ! ]= ! sambil tu hujan dh nk dkt teduh



teros naek kaki bukit ! hahahahaha jln2 pat belakang swimming pool ! huhuhu menakotkn ! teros g aljunied ke sim drive ! mkn ice kacang



hehehehe ! sedap tk ? huhuhu watinye ice kacang durian , nisa nye ice kacang mango ! sedap gile ! tapi still tetap lapar ! ape blh buat stall melayu tutup ! sekali npk western food ! beli 2 ayam & fried fries ! sedap tapi mase mkn gurao2 hahaha mkn ayam tulang campak kt muke wati huhuhu !


dhbis tu teros pergi bilik air ! nk cuci tangan nk pergi bilik air pon nk kene bayar seyh ! mepek sak singapore ni sekatak g bilik air haiya !



[= ! TEROS BALIK

SO MLM NI TUNGGU IHSAN ONLINE [=





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